I don't have anyone I could call family, nor a best friend I could talk to about anything. I'm not completely without friends, but there isn't someone so close that I can think, "it's okay because this person is here." In moments like that, I sometimes feel like I'm floating alone in this world. When you feel you have no one you can rely on, what keeps you going?
I feel I'm not supported by people, but by the ‘accumulation’ that I build up. Just like in work, creativity, and training, I steadily add routines that push me even a millimeter above yesterday, living with the vow that ‘my future self will never betray me.’